Have you ever wanted two things at the same time knowing that they cannot coexist together as one, so you go for the one and it’s always the wrong choice, but, keep making that same choice over and over hoping this time will be the way?

Well, it’s becoming a sideline story for me.

*Warning: If you don’t want to know some sexual details about me, then, I suggest you read another posting. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.*

My sex – love life is one big contradiction. This is just part of it and why it is.

There is two opposite sides to me. Some only know what they see, and some know the inner me.

The one side is a die hard romantic at heart. I am very loving, want to do so many sweet things, and just be with a special someone because being with them is the place to be and the best moments in life ever. I do believe in love, true love, the kind that lasts forever no matter what. I like to cook clean do dishes laundry and all the things thats “housewife” in the traditional sense. Laying in someone’s arms, just sitting with each other at the beach or in a park, savoring every moment wishing that moment would last a lifetime. I like to be loved like that in return and actually demand to be treated with the respect, courtesy kindness that someone would treat their special sweetheart with. Real love, not some cheap “myspace comment” generic love, or some fake ass “gangsta” steet love. I have to be the one, the only, the queen of the world. And I do like making love, at times.

But …

The other side of me is what contradicts this. I have this very kinky submissive side. I’m also the person who likes pain, you know, hard going rough sex. I like name calling, call me a bitch a slut a whore and it turns me on, at times. Pull my hair, hit me, tie me up or just throw me down and do me. It drives me crazy all of that. Make me do sexual things for money, yes, you know what that means. All of these things also gets me turned on, alot to be honest.

I do attract both types of persona’s, however, nobody has been both. Some try but one will always overpower the other and it makes a one way or the other senario.

The sweet sincere person for some reason, I just can’t believe that someone would want to be that person to me. You know, things too good to be true usually are, and that is what I live by. I do have trust issues, anyone who knows me will tell you that. So, I look for the bad, expecting it, because nothing can be one hundred percent good. That is why I think I never go for that type.

I am attracted to danger, and I think that shows in me. I think that if someone says “I’ll beat you until your ass is bruised” then I know it will happen and know what to expect. It’s like, it’s bad yes but it’s honest. What you see is what you get. But, I want mutual conscentual things to happen. The wild kinky stuff because we both want it. However, there are the days, even the day after the rough stuff, that I don’t want to be treated like that and want to just do the lovey stuff and be respected. But this type can’t do that and in the end, it doesn’t work because it turns to abuse. Being neglected, humiliated, cheated on and left to feel like complete trash.

It’s not the persons fault at all in my case. I want things and I know full well that they will turn to the things I hate. In the end when it doesn’t work, it leaves two people hurt. The other is hurt because they think I want one thing and they give it to me and I do a complete flip and wonder why I’m being treated like a whore when in fact, I wanted to be. If I ever went for someone who wants to be sweet and give me flowers and such, I’d flip because they wouldn’t be the type to give me the pain I want and I’d be left unsatisfied and I’d leave them too, not for doing wrong, but probably for doing everything right. I would also suspect anyone treating me too nice, to be doing dumb shit and trying to cover it up.

I am in control of my own destiny and I know this. This cycle I do bring on myself, and I end up hurting people, and end up being lost wondering if it is possible for the two types to be in one person and one day I will find that special someone.

Why did I post this? It’s what is going on inside my head at the moment, and it does bug me. You can comment if you like. But another warning, I do get alot of good advice and go do the opposite anyways. I may be smart, but I’m also hard headed. When I get an idea I just go with it and ignore the warning signs.

Thats all for now.

Even in the age of political correctness, some very political uncorrect things are becoming more “pc” and go by undetected.

Have you ever had a broken or fractured bone? Maybe burned yourself by accident? How about having been stuck in a crowd, public transit or busy line while checking out for example, and was next to someone with a severe cold and they were coughing and or sneezing on you?

How did you cope with these things? Did you want the side effects? The pain you endured in the case of injury? Was it your plan to get coughed and sneezed on?

You got by with things that you wished never happened. You endured the pain, a pain you did not want, did not like, and wished it would just go away. You got through the crowd, either getting to your destination or getting what you went to shop for. But, you didn’t want to be that close to someone with a cold, never wanted to be coughed and sneezed on, all the while being nice you didn’t tell that person to just go away even though you wished they would.

All these things you never wanted, didn’t like, wished would go away have one thing in common. You tolerated them. See, tolerance is something you do to things you don’t have a liking towards, in other words, things you hate. Even the dictionary says so:

Tolerate: to endure or resist the action of without serious side effects or discomfort, exibit physiological tolerance for; to allow to be or be done without prohibition, hindrance or contradiction; to put up with.

Basically straight up and to the point, to tolerate is just the politically correct way to say one hates, kind of like a diet hate.

Now after reading the facts, and how that word was used before the days of being all “pc”, do you honestly think that “yeah we tolerate homosexuals” is really the right thing to be saying? Read that statement again and think about it. What does it really say to you?

It’s time to stop closeted haters. Quit saying you tolerate, because it’s really not that much better.

“We accept homosexuals”

Now that is how it is supposed to be. Get it right people and quit masking your indirect hatred behind a false politically correct term that by definition is not exactly a pc thing to say towards a group of people.

Why? Because I will not “tolerate” hate … even if it’s made up to be all sweet sugar coated language, it still is what it is.

Hello everyone. Well, it’s finally here, the release day of my newest creation, the site your on. I’m excited as um, anyone who is on a nude beach for the first time, and yes just as nervous. Oh well, whatever happens happens and that’s that. Some will come here and be hating like crazy, and that is a give in, I don’t expect it but I accept it. But some are gonna get what I do and enjoy it. I’m like contradictory in my persona. Real life I’m quiet keep to myself (most days, there are times mind you I party like tomorrow will never arrive), but I’m also a people person and do what I do for the viewers, my fans and even my friends. Yeah, people who know me do “know me” if you know what I mean. I even do things for those that would otherwise hate on someone like myself, outgoing net personality or what I look like or my sexuality, it’s whatever. If you keep to your own “group” things will never change, and me, well, I know that and dare to go where I never should just to prove that I can. Hey someone got to break the chains of stereotypes right?

Ok I got a WAY off topic. I do that but hey it’s my Planet damnit! lol. I’m feelin good right now, everything is … right. This is something I always wanted to do. Hope you like. And yes, I am going to be using this as a journal of sorts. My life and things important to me … out there for you.

Take care and have a wonderful day. Toodle di do’s.

P.S. Here is one of my current favorite video’s

[For Immediate Release]

Mandi Faux during a live video chat February 17th 2010

Planet Mandi – Mandi Faux, transsexual internet celebrity model and entertainer, announces launch date of her brand new official blogging site.

July 2nd 2010 – Mandi Faux, one of the internet’s most popular transsexual internet celebrities, today has released her official online blog entitled Planet Mandi.

The blog will be an extension for friends and fans alike to have a more in depth look into the personal and professional life of Mandi Faux, direct from Mandi herself.

Not only will she be making entries about her, but Mandi will also be publishing news stories surrounding the Gay Lesbian Transgender community plus articles about other celebrities that Mandi has a personal liking of.

The personal blogs will have an in depth insight into the life and times of Mandi, giving the reader a glimpse of the triumphs, tragedies, the loves and losses, some rantings about things that bother Mandi and the transgender transitions that are ongoing with her.

“If a picture is worth a thousand words, then there must be a million more that I need to say. I don’t want to be known as just another model, be the stereotypical transsexual, nor will I be the complacent one who sits by and allows unjust behaviors to go unnoticed. I want people to know who I am, not just for what I look like or what I do.”

The reader will also have a very professional look into Mandi Faux’s many careers of modelling, video chat hostessing, music as well as the various other ventures through her own company, FauxStars Entertainment.

“Transsexuals can do more than just escort and porn. I happen to do those things by choice, but I, like a lot of others, do so much more. I do not have agents, webmasters, or promoters. I do everything myself, it’s a lot harder doing things that way, but I do have the satisfaction of knowing that my success is made because of my brains and not just beauty alone.”

Breaking away from the all too typical “celebrity gossip blogs”, Miss Faux is not going to print any article that has no merit what so ever to the world, but rather make news entries about the celebrities that are informative, insightful, and have more of a real appeal than to just trash talk about someone for personal gain.

The Gay Lesbian Transgender articles will be of interest to Mandi’s fans, being that Mandi Faux is a male to female transsexual herself, these news stories will be to let the people know who haven’t already heard about the positive things going on in the GLBT world, the human rights improvements, and the pioneers blazing trails for others like themselves to show the world that just because you happen to be GLBT it doesn’t mean that you will never be a certain person or have less success because of it.

All of the entries made on Planet Mandi about Mandi will be exclusive to Planet Mandi; nowhere else will this information be published making this the premier source of information regarding Mandi’s personal life and professional career.

You can view Planet Mandi at http://www.planetmandi.com

By: Mandi Faux